the baby in this pic is my older brother
the man holding him is my dad's dad 

he had colon cancer and while doing a surgery 
I believe they made an error involving a major artery
what should have been a not super serious surgery
took his life and left those who love him caught by surprise and broken-hearted

i woke this morning thinking my alarm had already gone off and that I needed to get my booty up, but it was one of those hazy places of rest where you're awake but so tired that you could easily fall back to sleep - in that in-and-out place of consiousness, it dawned on me that my alarm had not gone off - I ask alexa in a whisper, so she too answers in that lovely whisper, "What time is it" - exactly 20 minutes before my alarm - oh glorious - a 20 min nap before I have to get up - I rolled to the other side, adjusted my pillow from the warm side to a cool one and then wam - there it was

evil - just the word evil so strongly in my mind
not accompanied by any negativity and quickly followed by the spelling of the word backwards in my mind; this surprise revelation was wakening me quickly 
is that right? the reverse of evil is live
yes, the more awake I became the more right I realized that was

and here I am - sharing what my middle aged self just woke learning this morning and oh how true it rang - the gift of life - i often look at my fridge and the things hanging there currently as well as still many memories of ones that were there in the past - fill me with gratefulness for my life - to live is precious, it is sacred - it is good  - simply put it may be the root opposite of evil just as it is the written opposite of it - for at the end of the day for each of us - what remains?  life eternal - an everlasting, mind bending thought of living on forever