the baby in this pic is my older brother
the man holding him is my dad's dad 

he had colon cancer and while doing a surgery 
I believe they made an error involving a major artery
what should have been a not super serious surgery
took his life and left those who love him caught by surprise and broken-hearted

i woke this morning thinking my alarm had already gone off and that I needed to get my booty up, but it was one of those hazy places of rest where you're awake but so tired that you could easily fall back to sleep and in that in-and-out place of consiousness, it dawned on me that my alarm had not gone off - I ask alexa in a whisper (so she too answers in that lovely whisper), "What time is it" - exactly 20 minutes before my alarm - oh glorious - a 20 min nap before I have to get up - I rolled to the other side, adjusted my pillow from the warm side to a cool one and then wam - there it was

evil - just the word evil so strongly in my mind
not accompanied by any negativity and quickly followed by the spelling of the word backwards in my mind; this surprise revelation was wakening me quickly 
is that right? the reverse of evil is live
yes, the more awake I became the more right I realized that was

and here I am - sharing what my middle aged self just woke learning this morning and oh how true it rang - the gift of life - i often look at my fridge and the things hanging there currently as well as still many memories of ones that were there in the past - fill me with gratefulness for my life - to live is precious, it is sacred - it is good  - simply put it may be the root opposite of evil just as it is the written opposite of it - for at the end of the day for each of us - what remains?  life eternal - an everlasting, mind bending thought of living on forever