he knew you'd be a girl despite the words that he gave me that held me while waiting... in those words the gift was named Samuel... in real life, Samuel hasn't rung true for the gender he gave but for the Hannah heart it was preparing in me
i can feel the moment now the same as it was experienced Nov 9th, exactly 10 months after you were born... the whirlwind that was the last 12 hrs for me realizing your father and I were getting divorced brought one center of the hurricane stillness... "i have a daughter"
i was sitting on the chair in our family room and that phrase hit me like a ton of bricks - because the thought of what I knew divorce would mean wasn't something I could wrap my momma heart around... and so began the story of Hannah in my life - the difference being Hannah knew she was leaving her young child in the hands of God - and for me that moment felt like mine getting swept away in the current of life - doubtful one is easier than the other - mine just appeared without foresight
but thankfully, today as I wake up in our home - i'm flooded with the truth that God didn't give me the gift of a Samuel without carrying us both in every place needed
Deuteronomy 31:8