pick an object, she said

pair that, with a future vision

of the you you see

who is she, what is she like

what do her hands do and

how does she live her life

13 yrs ago

this was the advice

a heart as my object

but no vision arose

slowly but surely

high ups and low downs

tear-a-parts with rebuilds

God of ever after

protector of the heart-strings

wrapped around each reel

not just about past feelings

or hope for what plays out

healing in the seeing, 
the hands that hold me now