moved here last fall

learned from the neighbor next door that the lady

who was here before me buried 2 husbands

he followed it with, neither of them died in the house - bahaha

but also with the fact that it was her childhood home too!

i think he said she died at 91

i felt a funny kinship with her instantly from this info

b/c of the husband thing - I have had 2 marriages that
to me died for more emotional reasons and not just physical

i think this song by Steffany Gretzinger puts to words (and the video a beautiful visual)

 hope despite brokenness based on the solid emotional stance of Christ's love that
somehow, promised to restore

There is pain in emotional healing, or at least that is the route I've had to take to learn.  Yet I've also experienced God's soft hands when casting emotionally shattered bones.  He is ever aware and far more interested in our healing at times than we are. He'll risk more than we will want but he is the one who sees clearly why we are like we are and he knows the best path to peace.

I don't want to experience the pain of brokenness and the patience of the casting in vain.  I want casts removed as well and fresh beginnings to live lessons learned.   Most definitely two different sides of the same coin.  I've said before from Robin Norwood's book... it is one thing to see your unhealthy patterns - but another thing to start living without them.   Sweet Jesus.